So 2010 is gone and here we are in 2011. I have left this blog behind for so long and I have missed it!! I would like to start afresh. There have been so many changes in my life since I started this blog. I have moved from my Tooele house to one that is in West Valley and is about 3 times smaller than my other one. I have come to love this house. It isn't all bad moving into a smaller home. For one thing, I had to de-junk ...A LOT! I actually went through the boxes that I had packed up back in 2000 and hadn't looked in since. They had followed me from move to move and I couldn't just get rid of them without at least looking to see what was in there. It was nice to throw the old memories away and move on with my life.
I had a baby boy that I absolutely adore!!! I didn't think that I would ever have any more kids. That just wasn't how I had planned my life. Now, I can't imagine what I was thinking. Kolton fits into our family so nicely and my life would be so much different without him. I am really glad he came into our family. He is such an incredible little person and he brought joy back into my life. I had been so unhappy in my marriage for so long, that I had forgotten how much better life could be when I actually felt like being part of it. My kids love their little brother and are so good to help take care of him. They love to play and laugh together and it brings joy to my heart to watch them interact. I adore all of my kids!!!
Right now, I am in the process of getting divorced. I am extremely happy to be moving on from the living hell I have been wading through for years. I am not however happy about the problems it has caused with my children. They are finding themselves stuck in the middle of head games that my husband is trying to play. My hope for this new year is that I can figure out a way to shelter them from the storm. I want so desperately for my children to find the happiness that I have found in moving on without my husband. I know that is hard when they have to interact with him on a different level than I do.
I want them to find peace and I know they can find that through our Savior. I have been trying to let go of a lot of things and hand them over to Him. This is quite difficult for me to do, but I work on it daily and have many conversations with Him to help me through this. This is something I am trying to teach my children to do as well.
My kids are Amazing!!!! Cannon has started us reading our scriptures as a family and I have seen an increase in love around our home since we have been doing that. Kimberly has been a strength to her brothers and has helped them to deal with everything that has been going on. She in remarkable. Brycen is so full of love. He undervalues himself and my goal this year is to help him see just how wonderful he is. I have such deep love and devotion for all of my children. It makes my heart sing to think of them and they have pulled me through troubled times. My kids are my happy place!!
I am really looking forward to this new year. I am happy to be moving on in my life. I am happy to have so much independence restored to me and to feel liberated in my family life. I am so happy for each moment that I spend with my children. Having my husband take them every other weekend and split holidays with me has made me appreciate each second with them even more. I truly feel blessed to be in love with my kids. I have the very best family ever!!!!
I also have a new boss at work. I love my job at IFA and I love the people that I work with. I have been there for over 5 years now and I want to stay there forever. My boss has now become the CEO of the company, and starting on Monday, I will be working with someone new. This will be a huge change for me as well, and I am looking forward to forming a new friendship with someone I don't know very well.
I am so grateful for my friends. I have so many people in my life that I love. I feel blessed every day because my life is filled with friendship, love, and support from so many. I have fabulous parents, brothers, and sisters and I am grateful for the upbringing that I had. I was raised well and I hope to raise my children just as well. I have great relationships with my siblings and we all get along. I love that I can call just to chat, share my heartaches, my exciting news, and always have someone to lean on.
I am really looking forward to this new year. Welcome 2011 ~ Let's make it Great!!!
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